'teenage wasteland'

im not good at converting my feelings and emotions into words and im not good at pretending to be deep either (thats to all fake bloggers btw if you didnt get it yet) thus, i SUCK at blogging. so i hardly post.



but anyways its stevens bday in a couple hours. he`s like the most sweetest guy i have ever met in my life. he knows how to take a girl and make the world revolve around only her. he'll adore the ground she walks on and be there for her through everything. yeah thats how he treated me. he still treats me like that. but girls [or maybe just me] are fucking stupid and they like to fall for jerks and ass holes. so steven im sorry that i must fall for retards and stupid ass holes. i wish you really found some one whos just as awesome as you. im not ever gonna forget you though cause your great!! <3
i hope you party like a rockstar today lol then get completely trashed and when you call me in the morning you won`t even be able to remember half your evening lol


i hate how everyone expects so much from me. especially since i go to classical . big fucking whoop as if they don`t let just anyone in. i feel like my family is always watching me waiting for the next time i fuck up. i think they find comfort when i screw up because maybe then they won't feel like their the only ones who made mistakes as well. but shit gets annoying when everyone's nagging at you about school and grades and not going to class. don`t get me wrong. i wanna go somewhere in life. but don`t expect me to be a perfect kid who`s a fucking saint and never fucks up cause first of all no ones perfect and im A teenager!! we fuck up like 98% of the time. especially teenagers from providence. this place is a 'teenage wasteland'

its been while

RIP CHARLAYY 02.09-03.09


ello people. i know its been so long i like made one post and then just forgot about this place. but im a busy girl with work and school. well this weekend was gesenia's sweet 16 at the westin.
it was mad fun and i looked HAWTT!! lol gesenia looked so cute in her party dress. we had a ball. anyway today was a half day and i went to school to pick up jenifer and we left cause we were hungry. OMG once again an old man tried fighting us. lmfaooo. so this old man is like randomly calling us ass holes and saying we had "burnt brains" lmao. shit was hilarious . i think a best friend isnt just someone you go to when your sad or have a problem. a friend is so much more than that. their someone you can share stupid little jokes with and experience situations like these that make your bonds so much more stronger and unbreakable. :)


LIFE: yesterday someone told me how one should never look into one's past and dwell on it. well...i think the foundations of life are based on bad experiences and memories. you can't correct your mistakes and bad qualities unless you've lived through bad experiences . you have to learn to be brave from your beautiful mistakes . and maybe i do dwell on the past too much who knows. but im not gonna forget my past or regret the stupid shit i've done because thats what made me who i am today and im pretty fucking proud of the young lady i've grown up to be. yeah im not perfect, no one is but because of those bad experiences that "i dwell on too much" i've corrected alot about myself and learned to become a better me . `oh I've felt that fire and I've been burned but I wouldn't trade the pain for what I've learned`

jeni made me

hello world . i made this blog to fill jeni's heart with content. lol. today we leftt school cause she finally made up ALL her stupid exams and we went to shanghai`s . yummy =] . i had tufo cause im a "vegeterian" . its hard but i manage lmaoo jk. yo when we were walkinq home we saw larry bust his ass on the fuckinq ice!! i love havinq jenifer around cause we just experience the weirdest thinqs. i felt bad for the nikka but damn that shit was funny. me and jeni just pointed and lauqhed anyway we had no where to go hence...this post. wow i love blogging already...DIQUE! anyway after shanghais we went to "minq minq's" to accompany brendita [my little big sis] to do he'r nails. but brenda forgot her purse in the car so we walked around while we were waiting for my other sister caroline to bring her purse. we decided to go try on "hooker heels" and take pictures. however some old hag had the fuckinq ordacity to spazz on us for makinq a mess. but we didn`t even make a mess that old niqqa had to be in a retirement home or somethinq. but anyway we spazzed riqht on back and he felt STUPID!! and then we dropped jeni off and .... wow jeni just texted me!! she`s banqinq somone in the face appearently because someone is beinq a fuckinq retard. yo i swear jenifer has like the most beef in providence and i d k why she`s fuxkinq AMAZING!! anyway here i am with the hooker heels i just love the purse lmfao lmfao!!



lmao me and jeni matched!! que lindas we`re hookers together...well not for real we actually hate sluts and hoes.