'teenage wasteland'

im not good at converting my feelings and emotions into words and im not good at pretending to be deep either (thats to all fake bloggers btw if you didnt get it yet) thus, i SUCK at blogging. so i hardly post.



but anyways its stevens bday in a couple hours. he`s like the most sweetest guy i have ever met in my life. he knows how to take a girl and make the world revolve around only her. he'll adore the ground she walks on and be there for her through everything. yeah thats how he treated me. he still treats me like that. but girls [or maybe just me] are fucking stupid and they like to fall for jerks and ass holes. so steven im sorry that i must fall for retards and stupid ass holes. i wish you really found some one whos just as awesome as you. im not ever gonna forget you though cause your great!! <3
i hope you party like a rockstar today lol then get completely trashed and when you call me in the morning you won`t even be able to remember half your evening lol


i hate how everyone expects so much from me. especially since i go to classical . big fucking whoop as if they don`t let just anyone in. i feel like my family is always watching me waiting for the next time i fuck up. i think they find comfort when i screw up because maybe then they won't feel like their the only ones who made mistakes as well. but shit gets annoying when everyone's nagging at you about school and grades and not going to class. don`t get me wrong. i wanna go somewhere in life. but don`t expect me to be a perfect kid who`s a fucking saint and never fucks up cause first of all no ones perfect and im A teenager!! we fuck up like 98% of the time. especially teenagers from providence. this place is a 'teenage wasteland'